It’s hard to think about all that’s changed in the last 3 years since you’ve been gone. It’s crazy really, all the things I would’ve loved for you to see, to counsel, to visit, to love…
A marriage to an amazing woman
A home filled love
A new life that is at the centre of the universe with an aura so pure and amazing. You would love her so much. I’ll be for her everything you were for me. One day she’ll hear all about you.
It’s been challenging … but we’ve done a lot.. your team.. we all carry you with us…
I wish everything was great, I wish I could say some things are going to be better. I wish I could say everyone spoke lovingly of you. I wish everyone would just reveal their motives rather than shroud it in the pretence of love. But such is not the life that you departed. Feuds and animosity are rampant. Decisions had to be made. Changes implemented. Some days it seems harder to keep my last promise to you… but I try.
Sometimes I think how the physical reward of your hard work has brought about so much contention. I can’t believe how much entitlement exists. It grieves me to think how you didn’t get to enjoy it for longer but at this rate I doubt anyone truly will ever enjoy it again but I will forever treasure the memories.
Sometimes I want the world to know how great you were, you know memorialize you. But that’d be selfish of me because we are all temporal before we transcend, and quite frankly, the world just isn’t that deserving for you to be shared like that and the omens revealed that to me.
Your life taught me a lot but so too your death.
It took me until 2020, to even learn of some the battles you fought. The courage it takes to choose yourself. I am still finding more reasons to respect you, even after all this time. I’ve already chosen to emulate, simply because life is too short to make ‘inconsequentials’ rob my family of peace and joy. I am happy that I learned early on that family is not defined by blood, and love is not defined by gifts.
I love you. I miss you. Thanks for everything. I hope you have a great garden tending to…
Sleep good dad.